Conversations With A Stranger

I would like to share with you, the reader, a conversation that I have had with a complete stranger.  This person has chosen to remain anonymous to me, however was brave enough to contact me through my blog.  The content that I have included is extremely edited for privacy on both ends.  These conversations have touched my heart and have boosted my beliefs of My Higher Purpose that God has for me.  I don't believe in coincidences.   


After a brief introduction, I asked this person if there was something that was needed to be said to me, since this person was the one that contacted me.  I encouraged this person to tell me or ask me whatever came to mind.

Anonymous said: 

"...to be honest with you I haven't truly wished for anything in awhile because in a lot of ways it seems that wishes don't come true. (However) if I could have a wish granted, I would wish for clarity and the courage to follow through (with) whatever path is clarified; if that makes sense. I crave to alleviate this inner emptiness,fear,doubt and pain.  I know I sound crazy but I'm just being honest. Right now, and lately, I've been taking trips to my past through my thoughts and over-analyzing all my mistakes. (So), enough depressing shit. What I really wish for right now is a cheeseburger; that sounds good."

I replied:

"As far as the depressing things....it's (good) to get them out.  You can tell me anything you want, whenever you want. However, I have to offer a bit of advice from experience.  The more you visit your past, the more real it will become.  The more you focus on your past mistakes and take trips there, the more you will bring them into your present life. Don't go there anymore.  It is "ok" to remember your mistakes (in efforts not to) make them again.  But (DO NOT) recreate them in your mind.  Visualization is a powerful thing. Visualize what you want in your life. Create it that in your mind and believe that you will have it.  These things take time and old habits are hard to break. Also, you crave to get rid your emptiness because it is The Creator's desire to fill it that void.  Whoever you believe The Creator is...let Him/Her/It in. I can help you with this. It is part of my Life Purpose and Gift from My Creator. But, I have to have your verbal permission.

(A a little note) (The) cheeseburger (statement was) funny. I don't eat beef anymore...but yes, sometimes I crave the same. So I eat a turkey or soy burger..."

After a brief silence for two days, I decided to take this person up to The Creator.  After my meditation and conversation with God; I wrote  back saying:

"I was praying and meditating with you in mind. I took my requests to the Creator and asked to show me what was missing in your life. I drifted down to earth in my mind's eye and saw you (in my mind's) ... I was not allowed to enter your space/aura. Then from your stomach area (solar plexus chakra) I heard this song....

''head has a hole, 

black as your soul, 

I would rather die, 

than give you control''   Lyrics to "Head Like A Hole" by Nine Inch Nails

I (have) always rocked out to that song (by Nine Inch Nails), but now it's power ...(has)... more meaning to me. I immediately left and went back to The Creator and requested that you be sent unconditional Love and that you would be shown what it was like not to have Hate and emptiness in your life. What is interesting about your solar plexus chakra singing this song is that this is the area (of your body) in which we carry our ego's. It is also the center of our Souls Power and Will. You might want to ask yourself what you are allowing to ''power'' you. If it is hate, pride, stubbornness, etc.....then you might want to reconsider a more ''filling'' food for your soul."

After thinking about what I knew about this song and looking at the original lyrics; it was Trent Reznor's (author of lyrics) intention to express his hatred for the traditional church and tithing. However, I am not 100% sure about that. This is what the song says to me. In addition, Reznor could be saying that he isn't going to give into the greed of money and other dark entities and ideals that serve no purpose except for having control of others.  SongFacts: Opinions about song "Head Like A Hole" by Nine Inch Nails


Anonymous wrote back:

"What's weird about you're last e-mail is that I was listening to that song earlier in the day. (By the way), it's "head like a hole" (not "head has a hole"). *(Thanks for the correction Anonymous)*

I'd like to hear more about ... (the) solar plexus (and) ego ... "

[Anonymous then goes into a little detail about Hate & Protection beliefs and how it applies to Life]

"I realize I've made decisions that make me accepted by very few people but they are the decisions that I've made. I feel that there are many people that share my same veiws but either don't know (enough) or are too scared to stand up for them. (However), we'll talk (about that) later."

I wrote back:

"Here are my thoughts on this issue....

Love Vs. Hate

Hate Vs. Protection
(Definitions)( I have to define things first, to make more sense of it all, and because I am a nerd like that!)

Hate - to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for/or extreme hostility toward; to detest: to be unwilling (to love); to feel or have extreme aversion or hostility.

Protect - to cover or shield from exposure, injury, damage, or destruction, to guard and/or to defend

Love -  unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another:  affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests;  strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties.

So...if you Love someone or something...you cannot Hate it (or mix Hate with or near it) and you would instinctively desire to protect it from harm or destruction. However to mix a Hatred of something else in the Love of the object, idea or person would cancel out the Love and make the Protection weak.

Hatred is really Fear in disguise.

There are only three real emotions when it really boils down the root of the problem or circumstance. Love, Fear and Sorrow.  

The question is....

Do you want to act out of Love?

Do you want to act out of Fear?

Do you want to act our or Sorrow?

 ( Sorrow is a ""deep distress, sadness, or regret especially for the loss of someone or something loved"")

Sorrow is not just a sadness or depression. Sorrow is something that is natural and is resolved by Love with Time and Learning.

It does not benefit one's Being/Soul to Hate another person because of their race or cultural background.  Hate is unproductive and serves no higher purpose.  

With this Hate comes blame. (Blame is ""To find fault with, to hold responsible, to place responsibly on or for"") Blame is really Fear, as is Hate.  What is it that you really Fear?  The extinction of the ...?  Ok then...this a valid fear.  This is where you feel the need to Protect.  But remember you can't truly Protect without Love.

Until you learn to act out Love, no matter what your beliefs are about your HISTORY of your culture, you will find that you won't want to HATE another ... because it easier to LOVE them from afar while teaching yourself and your children that you think (and believe) is better to ... (text omitted).

However, in my readings, I have found that in HISTORY, ... (text omitted)...(some) origin('s) is (are) not firmly known (about)... and is considered a wider variety of ...(cultures)...  So HISTORY has, once again, been perverted because of HATE/FEAR.

So since we can't change HISTORY, we should only be responsible for ourselves (in our present lives).  We can change ourselves (for) future. So...

do you choose to live your life choosing LOVE? 

Do you choose to live your life choosing FEAR? 

Do you choose to live your life choosing SORROW?

I choose LOVE."

I haven't heard from Anonymous since my last message.