Showing posts with label conversation. Show all posts
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Thursday, September 8, 2011

Messages From The Other Side


I wrote this in an email on August 21, 2001.  I thought it was time to share it.
(Email)
I found this article online. I thought I would share with you because as a person that is a medium for The Creator is my purpose to use my gift from God to assist others in any way possible.
I underlined the highlights and put some things about my friend that has "crossed over" that I know to be true in parentheses.  The article is about talking to your deceased love ones.
******(Article)
Communicating With Spirits by Lori Lothian (Click Here)
In reality, talking to the dead is more like placing a long distance phone call to a third world country--the connection can be tenuous and static-filled, but in the end it is as simple as dialing. On the other hand, going to a medium to talk to dear departed grandma is like placing an operator-assisted call--you only need to resort to that more expensive option after your own attempts have failed. Unfortunately, however, people often seek the assistance of a professional psychic connection before they have even begun to make their own.
The first directive to successful spirit communication may seem the most obvious: You have to want to make contact. Fear, guilt, shame and anger can all get in the way of communing with a loved one who has made the transition from the physical world. Emotions that run deep often act as a self-erected unconscious barrier to not only dealing with grief, but also to making an afterlife connection. When an aging parent dies, for instance, it often becomes apparent which sibling has the most unprocessed "stuff" about that parent. Other siblings will often report dream visitations while the sibling in angst reports nightmares instead. On the flip side, sometimes the lack of contact may also be the spirit itself making a decision that for the bereaved's best healing, contact may need to wait until a later date.The next to thing to remember about spirit-communication is that if you are not listening, you won't hear. Those in spirit make every effort to get our attention in ways that are gentle and non-threatening, so much so that these subtle messages are often missed. Cues can include a ringing in the ears, a fleeting image of movement in our peripheral vision and of course, dream appearances and waking signs.
((**My friend has come through to me as popping in my ears, snapping sounds in my ears, a full feeling in my ears and a tingling in my upper back.  My lights have been flickering on and off in my house, mostly in my bathroom and bedroom.  If you have a cat, pay attention to what your cat is seeing.  Cats are very attune to the spirit world. Mine tells me all sorts of cool things.  My friend and I shared a favorite song that we talked about most often and it has been on reply in my head and I hear it everywhere in stores, restaurants and on the radio.  And it is not a new song.  One thing that I remember most is my friend had/has a dark sense of humor.  He loved to play jokes and tell weird and dark stories in hopes that he could get you to believe them and get a rise out of you or freak you out.  So when he comes through is still communicating in the same manner before he gives his comforting message. I remember saying to him once (and him agreeing) that if one of us died we would haunt each other forever and love every minute of it!!! Lol**))
(Article)
When my deceased grandmother is around me I often know this by the synchronicities she provides. The symbol of the star is significant between us, based on an Avon ring I gave her as a child called A Star Is Born. Whenever she is hovering, I receive an unmistakable confluence of star imagery. I recall one week where a friend sent me a silk scarf with stars all over it, another mailed me an envelope of foil confetti stars and I saw stars in places as diverse as TV, billboards and personalized license plates. That week was an important time for me as I was videotaping a segment for a TV show and was a basket case of nerves. The reassurance from my grandmother was just what I needed to go ahead with calm confidence.
On another occasion, I was in the midst of making an important decision when she came through with a thumbs-up vote by synchronicity: three times in only two days I found myself driving behind a bumper sticker that read Grace Happens! My grandmother's name, of course, was Grace.
Every once in a while spirit will make a grand entrance when perhaps we have been slow to pay attention. One story that comes to mind is that of a friend whose recently deceased father made his presence known in an unusual way. When Audrey's father died, she took home his video camera and left it on a shelf in her living room. One night as she and her family sat watching TV, the camera suddenly began to whir and hum: her father's camera had turned on by itself. Although Audrey wondered whether her father was responsible, she became convinced later that same night when two smoke detectors in the home began beeping the warning beep associated with a low battery. When she opened up the detectors, however, she realized there were no batteries at all inside. Audrey took this as a friendly safety message from her father who routinely used to remind the family to keep smoke detectors in working order.
Communication is always a two-way street and it's no different when chatting with the dead. We can ask for guidance from the departed by simply thinking it or writing down our questions in a journal. Answers come through signs, synchronicities and sometimes dream conversations.
((**My friend once told me that he was tired of feeling "this" way.  He was referring to (text omitted) and the paranoia that came from his BiPolar & Scizoaffective Disorder and being in the AC.  He just wanted to feel safe and loved all the time.  He has come to me in many dreams.  He has told me that he "knows" the TRUTH about everything now, even the little stuff.  The Creator showed him everything in order for him to begin his healing process that most of us get to do on Earth.  He gets to do it in the Light and Love of his ancestors and God.  How cool is that!!?  Also, I dreampt that  he was in the hospital dying and he got to tell his mother everything and die in her arms. He is going to teach me and his family (for those who listen) so many things about ourselves that we never knew existed.**))
(Article)
When my father died I was not present for his death and longed to know that his sudden stroke had not been a terrifying event for him. I also questioned why he chose that particular time to die. The answer came within weeks of his death, in a dream visitation. In the dream my father allowed me to time travel to the scene of his collapse, where I was able to comfort him as he transitioned. In the same dream, I asked him why he chose to die. He said: Because I was tired of worrying. This immediately made sense to me because my father's worsening Alzheimers had made simple tasks such as paying bills and taking medicines impossible for him. Feeling out of control about finances and his health no doubt worried him greatly and departing his deteriorating mind would have likely been a relief.
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As of today, September 8th, 2011
So since I wrote this email so many other things have happened.
Over the holiday weekend I was traveling and I saw my friend's last name everywhere.  On a car dealership sign, a ranch sign, I heard it used on the news for a completely different person.  Then when I got home I went to a used book store and was browsing in a book; a slip of paper was left by a previous owner with names and phone numbers written on it.  On of the people's last names was his, as well.  So I bought the book and I really didn't like it.  But I don't believe in coincidences.
I also have had a dream of him giving me white feathers.  It was beautiful and there were lots of them.  A feather can represent truth and may mean that life will be comforting and easy going.  This is a first experience for me. 
In addition, I have seen him kneeling beside my bed while I was reading a book.  It was kind of like he was reading the book with me.  I also, had a fabulous experience while attending a Kirtan at the local yoga studio.  I won't go into this because it is so very personal.  I share a lot of personal things on my blog, so you must know that this is extremely personal.  However, I will tell you about it in a private message if curiosity kills the cat!  LOL


Be well today, my friends.

Blessings 
"in the Love and the Light of the One
Infinite Creator. Go forth, then, merry and glad and rejoicing in the Power 
and the Peace of the One Creator. Adonai" 


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Another Conversation Worth Sharing

Good morning friends!!
I hope that you are well and have used this beautiful cool Texas morning to ground yourself in the Love of Yeshua and Yahweh, The Creator of All that IS.


I wanted to share with you another conversation with a kindred spirit and friend.  Of course, it has been edited. My intentions with sharing my conversations is to share what I am learning.


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Dear Kindred Spirit,I wanted to ask you some questions.
This weekend I was so completely exhausted, but I knew why.  However today is the same and I feel awful.  I have taken it to The Creator a few times today, only to feel worse. My spine hurts, my head hurts, my stomach hurts and my ears are full.  When I ask to be shown why, I am getting horrible pains in my head.  I did not experience this over the weekend.
Am I detoxing from the intense weekend?
Is this what a healing feels like when you body is catching up to the "changes" that were made over the weekend?
Am I blocking myself in some way?
Any words of wisdom would be hugely embraced.
On a positive note....
I was chillin with my garden and loving my plants last night...this morning when I woke up I went outside and all the plants had gorgeous blooms covering them and my tomato plant has three gorgeous red tomatoes, that were small and green the night before. Too cool.
In addition, my cat and I talked a little last night (which isn't a new thing) and he put out the most wonderful energy.  I do believe that he was praying with me, when I was praying.  I have never seen an animals aura before. This morning he was very verbal to me and felt like I should follow him.  He lead me to a few different places that he had problems with.  Turns out he doesn't like where his food bowl is or where is litter box is.  Who knew? 
-Kate 
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Kate,

 Thanks for writing.So sorry that you are experiencing these symptoms.  

YES, you are very right.  
When we open ourselves up - many things happen and need to be GENTLY let loose. 
So - be very very sure that when you go to Creator you are grounding 1st to 'allow' the excess energy 
- all that is dark and bad and heavy -
to release with several full and deep breaths...into the earth....and stay with this a few minutes.....
THEN - gently - walk up igniting all energy centers. 
STAY in the glittery pealescent light and now breath here until you are fully - YET GENTLY - open. 
ASK to clear ALL in a gently and beautiful way. 
ASK - is there anything I can do - eat - etc. that will make me integrate WITH EASE and LOVE here....
RELEASE the heaviness and irritability of anything that bothers you (and you may walk thru these 'areas' individually!)

I know when ...(text omitted)... I was confused - disoriented - and sort of overall irritated.  I was trying to 'make sense' of everything in my OLD ways of 'knowing how' to control. 
IT WAS ONLY WITH RELEASE and total 'turning it all over' that I was able to breath deeply and allow ALL that was to happen...as it should be.
 When areas in our body HOLD pain or are out of balance - we feel it. 
ALLOW. 
OPEN these areas up. 
TURN OVER this pain to flow freely. 
DO NOT hold onto the pain (unless you have belief work IN THESE AREAS that you need to release.)
Ask - you'll know - "what do I need to 'let go of' to release the tension in my back?

GIVE YOURSELF TIME. 
SLOW IT ALL DOWN (I know this is NOT something you like to do....hehe!) 
Remember - you can work on yourself one piece at a time....maybe start with your stomach so that it is 'not' disturbed with these new ideas - thoughts - openness.  Then move to your back....etc.

My last suggestion  is - get in water - drink water - cleanse with water and very earthy veggies.  This will make it easier on you....as well as being sure you have good vitamins and minerals. 
OH - and try NOT TO EAT after 5-6pm at night so your body is not working overtime.

SOON - when all this part is done and integrated....you will feel GOOD!  Probably better than you have in a long time.
Lighter. 
More easily grounded...

SO - go easily. 
Breathe through
ALLOW. 
Ground. 
Ask 'C'. (Creator)

Blessings and thanks for writing.  It will ALL BE wonderful soon.....LOVE YOURSELF!!!!

FOR ME - even today - I feel lighter - more balanced...and am starting to come 'back' to living fully on the earth.  (This may be something you want to teach yourself thru C (Creator) - how to be the spiritual being that I am WHILE living on the earth - with grace and ease!)
...
(In addition, isn't it) so fun to play in ALL there is....I LOVE it and hope ALL of your blossoms continue to bloom with love and fun!
(-Kindred Spirit) 
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Dear Kindred Spirit,Thank you so much for the advice.
You are right, I don't like SLOW.  I think that is part of my generation.  The instant gratification thing. I will concentrate on being gentle on myself.
As for the water thing...here lately I have dreaded getting in the shower or bath.  I just don't want to do it.  I suppose that I am fighting something that I need most. I never thought of it in any other way except being lazy. LOL
I have been fighting my body as far as eating veggies.  It has been telling me to do this.  I have been getting very hungry in the afternoon for months now, only to not want dinner in the evening.
The body is so smart.
In addition to all the body things..I have been dreaming...violently. Very disturbing things, mixed with very loving things.
Also, two people have come up to me and said they know me and can't place it.... I didn't know their faces.
Then a person from my past contacted me via email with only the message saying, "I promise to always return".  This makes me nervous. It is a long story...
...
I am feeling better this morning.  I went out to the garden and found two huge cucumbers that weren't there yesterday and noticed that my Crepe Myrtle Tree had bloomed.My daughter asked me to sing to her this morning and she asked to help me bless the Crepe Myrtle Tree.
All things beautiful this morning.
...
In deep gratitude,Kate
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Morning Kate,I loved reading your message!  Totally 'right on' and fun - right?!?!?!  I know when I found... I all of a sudden found confirmation of things I had felt ALL MY LIFE...It is like - "all is fine as it is" sort of feeling!  Every day I feel a little more and more comfortable with spirituality and "me".When I first met you, I knew immediately that you had those same feelings (like) "Where are MY people?"  
I heard a story once of a little boy born into a family that had waited and waited for him. Yet, when he started walking he was always trying to escape out the screen door.  They had to lock him in and ALWAYS watch him.  When he was about 4 he was able to "run away" again because his family had looked the other way only for a moment.  When they asked him...."why do you keep trying to leave?"  He simply said, "You people are nice and kind but I need to find MY PEOPLE!"  (that resonated with me more than you'll know!) So, in many many ways, I guess, I will always be looking for MY people. Yet, in many other ways, I know I have found MANY of them!...
I am so happy to know that you are feeling better and better....dreams - seeing - incorporating - 'walking on this earth while WANTING to play in others"....this is ALL part of it!!!!  You will be GREAT with it all very very soon...and will be helping others.........
The vibration is rising.....BLESSINGS to you and yours. 
(-Kindred Spirit)


 

Friday, June 17, 2011

Conversations With A Stranger

I would like to share with you, the reader, a conversation that I have had with a complete stranger.  This person has chosen to remain anonymous to me, however was brave enough to contact me through my blog.  The content that I have included is extremely edited for privacy on both ends.  These conversations have touched my heart and have boosted my beliefs of My Higher Purpose that God has for me.  I don't believe in coincidences.   


After a brief introduction, I asked this person if there was something that was needed to be said to me, since this person was the one that contacted me.  I encouraged this person to tell me or ask me whatever came to mind.


Anonymous said: 

"...to be honest with you I haven't truly wished for anything in awhile because in a lot of ways it seems that wishes don't come true. (However) if I could have a wish granted, I would wish for clarity and the courage to follow through (with) whatever path is clarified; if that makes sense. I crave to alleviate this inner emptiness,fear,doubt and pain.  I know I sound crazy but I'm just being honest. Right now, and lately, I've been taking trips to my past through my thoughts and over-analyzing all my mistakes. (So), enough depressing shit. What I really wish for right now is a cheeseburger; that sounds good."

I replied:


"As far as the depressing things....it's (good) to get them out.  You can tell me anything you want, whenever you want. However, I have to offer a bit of advice from experience.  The more you visit your past, the more real it will become.  The more you focus on your past mistakes and take trips there, the more you will bring them into your present life. Don't go there anymore.  It is "ok" to remember your mistakes (in efforts not to) make them again.  But (DO NOT) recreate them in your mind.  Visualization is a powerful thing. Visualize what you want in your life. Create it that in your mind and believe that you will have it.  These things take time and old habits are hard to break. Also, you crave to get rid your emptiness because it is The Creator's desire to fill it that void.  Whoever you believe The Creator is...let Him/Her/It in. I can help you with this. It is part of my Life Purpose and Gift from My Creator. But, I have to have your verbal permission.

(A a little note) (The) cheeseburger (statement was) funny. I don't eat beef anymore...but yes, sometimes I crave the same. So I eat a turkey or soy burger..."

After a brief silence for two days, I decided to take this person up to The Creator.  After my meditation and conversation with God; I wrote  back saying:


"I was praying and meditating with you in mind. I took my requests to the Creator and asked to show me what was missing in your life. I drifted down to earth in my mind's eye and saw you (in my mind's) ... I was not allowed to enter your space/aura. Then from your stomach area (solar plexus chakra) I heard this song....
''head has a hole, 
black as your soul, 
I would rather die, 
I (have) always rocked out to that song (by Nine Inch Nails), but now it's power ...(has)... more meaning to me. I immediately left and went back to The Creator and requested that you be sent unconditional Love and that you would be shown what it was like not to have Hate and emptiness in your life. What is interesting about your solar plexus chakra singing this song is that this is the area (of your body) in which we carry our ego's. It is also the center of our Souls Power and Will. You might want to ask yourself what you are allowing to ''power'' you. If it is hate, pride, stubbornness, etc.....then you might want to reconsider a more ''filling'' food for your soul."


After thinking about what I knew about this song and looking at the original lyrics; it was Trent Reznor's (author of lyrics) intention to express his hatred for the traditional church and tithing. However, I am not 100% sure about that. This is what the song says to me. In addition, Reznor could be saying that he isn't going to give into the greed of money and other dark entities and ideals that serve no purpose except for having control of others.  SongFacts: Opinions about song "Head Like A Hole" by Nine Inch Nails


Anonymous wrote back:
"What's weird about you're last e-mail is that I was listening to that song earlier in the day. (By the way), it's "head like a hole" (not "head has a hole"). *(Thanks for the correction Anonymous)*
I'd like to hear more about ... (the) solar plexus (and) ego ... "

[Anonymous then goes into a little detail about Hate & Protection beliefs and how it applies to Life]

"I realize I've made decisions that make me accepted by very few people but they are the decisions that I've made. I feel that there are many people that share my same veiws but either don't know (enough) or are too scared to stand up for them. (However), we'll talk (about that) later."







I wrote back:

"Here are my thoughts on this issue....
Love Vs. Hate
Hate Vs. Protection
(Definitions)( I have to define things first, to make more sense of it all, and because I am a nerd like that!)
Hate - to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for/or extreme hostility toward; to detest: to be unwilling (to love); to feel or have extreme aversion or hostility.
Protect - to cover or shield from exposure, injury, damage, or destruction, to guard and/or to defend

Love -  unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another:  affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests;  strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties.

So...if you Love someone or something...you cannot Hate it (or mix Hate with or near it) and you would instinctively desire to protect it from harm or destruction. However to mix a Hatred of something else in the Love of the object, idea or person would cancel out the Love and make the Protection weak.

Hatred is really Fear in disguise.

There are only three real emotions when it really boils down the root of the problem or circumstance. Love, Fear and Sorrow.  
The question is....
Do you want to act out of Love?
Do you want to act out of Fear?
Do you want to act our or Sorrow?
 ( Sorrow is a ""deep distress, sadness, or regret especially for the loss of someone or something loved"")
Sorrow is not just a sadness or depression. Sorrow is something that is natural and is resolved by Love with Time and Learning.

It does not benefit one's Being/Soul to Hate another person because of their race or cultural background.  Hate is unproductive and serves no higher purpose.  
With this Hate comes blame. (Blame is ""To find fault with, to hold responsible, to place responsibly on or for"") Blame is really Fear, as is Hate.  What is it that you really Fear?  The extinction of the ...?  Ok then...this a valid fear.  This is where you feel the need to Protect.  But remember you can't truly Protect without Love.
Until you learn to act out Love, no matter what your beliefs are about your HISTORY of your culture, you will find that you won't want to HATE another ... because it easier to LOVE them from afar while teaching yourself and your children that you think (and believe) is better to ... (text omitted).
However, in my readings, I have found that in HISTORY, ... (text omitted)...(some) origin('s) is (are) not firmly known (about)... and is considered a wider variety of ...(cultures)...  So HISTORY has, once again, been perverted because of HATE/FEAR.

So since we can't change HISTORY, we should only be responsible for ourselves (in our present lives).  We can change ourselves (for) future. So...
do you choose to live your life choosing LOVE? 
Do you choose to live your life choosing FEAR? 
Do you choose to live your life choosing SORROW?

I choose LOVE."

I haven't heard from Anonymous since my last message.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Hello? Is Anyone Out There?

I was just wondering if anyone is out there?  Does anyone really read my rants and raves about my life and the universe?  Should I be writing about my kids and husband more? 

I REALLY want some feed back from some people my age. 28 yrs and up. I am 31. Can you believe that?  31!!!!  I feel like I am 18 inside still.  Only with a body of a 70 year old. Yuck.

Right now, my back is killing me, my period came early, my kids have been sick all week and the chances of going to yoga are getting slimmer and slimmer. 

The thought occurred to me yesterday as I was making the calendar for the summer time events that I may never get up to the yoga studio.  I don't feel defeated, just swamped with the kids activities.

How do I make time for myself? 

Before I started the calendar I was thinking of some things that I used to do that I loved and how I would like to get back into them. 
Singing, Writing, Volleyball and Softball.

I have found my new love of yoga and I am finally being able to mix in my life a little, but how in the world would I mix volleyball in there.  Let alone be able to afford to pay to be on a league.

Blah blah blah blah blah.

So I have had some good things happen lately. 

I have been communicating a little more with my sister and I hope that she is feeling better about life in general after our talks. I hope and desire that our conversations will be daily and she will move back to Texas very soon.  Her roots are here. 

I have a good friend/neighbor that is of like mind and I believe that I might be past the doubt and fear of talking to her when I feel the desire to discuss the finer, spiritual things in life. 

Also, I made a good connection ,and hopefully a friend, that has aided me in perusing my education in Light Work.

Lastly, I am hoping to get involved in a babysitting co-op that is still in making for the yoga studio that I attend.  I am anxious to get started because childcare is the biggest bump in the road to continuing my yoga practice with the wonderful people of my community.

In addition, I was thinking of joining the school's PTO or PTA. (I am wrinkling my nose a little).  I just feel the need to be involved in the community in every level that I possibly can.

I have so many plans and visions, but I am only one person and there is only 24 hours in a day. Plus I don't have that much energy or resources. Yikes!!  I don't think that I am that organized either. LOL

Anyhow, please people give me some feedback. Talk to me.  I don't care who you are or where you are at in the world.  Talk to me.

May your day be blessed with the Love of Yahweh.