Drawing Auras

Someone suggested to me that I draw the auras that I see.
So here is the first one that I did today.  I started with the aura that I see the most: My hands after I pray and meditate.
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Independence, Headaches, Orbs and Auras

Happy Fourth of July!!

I am infinitely grateful for America's Independence and Freedom as our Founding Fathers so dreamed of and planned. I celebrate this Ideal along with the men and woman that fought and sacrificed so graciously for.

It is a gloriously hot morning in here in Texas. The heat is ever so oppressive here and it brings the worst out of me and the kids.  Thank God for the pool!! The kids and I will be staying in the pool and under the comfort of the air conditioning with immense gratitude for my husbands hard work to make the money to pay for the outrageous electricity bill!! :)

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So this is where I am going to change gears a bit and talk about some things that have been on my mind. (I am shifting out of reverse gear and going into first gear. Gotta back the car up to get out the parking space.)

Foremost, I started this blog with high hopes of sharing with people of like mind.  I am not sure how that is working out.  I try to put this blog out there publicly with as much searchable possibilities as my tech retarded mind will allow me. :) In addition to sharing, I had a selfish reason as well.  I wanted feedback, comments, and conversations.  I didn't care who is was from.... I just wanted to hear something, from anyone, about what they thought was happening in their lives compared to mine.  They could cuss me, praise me, uplift me or tear me down.  I just want to hear from others.  Except for a very very select few, this is NOT happening.
I do realize that I am not of what people consider "normal".  I believe that people are afraid to tell what they really think or perhaps (because of the blog's weird content), they don't even know what to say.  All of this I understand.  However still, it would cool to get an anonymous message that says, "WTF?, what are you smoking?" or "You are going to die and go to Hell. Jesus saves." or "Right on, sister!"....or even "Ummm...?????...I don't even know how to reply to that...there are no words to express my confusion."
Anyhow. It is what it is and I will continue to write regardless.

So now that we are out of first gear...I will shift into second gear.
I have experienced some very  odd and painful things in past week.  I am reluctant to talk about them with great detail, but I feel the need.  If you are reading this and you want to know more details, I will be very happy to share them with you in a private message or whatever.
So to start off, I have been having massive headaches. The are behind my eyes with great pressure to point that I cant stand to even open them...let alone read, watch TV or look at the computer screen for more than a few minutes.  In the past week, I have had a least three instances of these headaches that have lasted for more than 6 hours.  At first I thought it was allergies. So I went to the doctor and refilled my allergy medications.  This didn't help and no amount of ibuprofen, acetaminophen or naproxen have even touched the pain.  I really don't like to take allergy medication because I believe that they numb my "sixth sense" (to put it lightly).  But you do what you have to do.  Plus I already take medications for Manic Depressive Disorder, ADD, and Anxiety, which already numb my gift that The Creator has given me.  Thus, I hate to numb it even further. I would love to get off the medications, but I have a great fear of not being able to handle all the Universes messages and the Earth's energy to the point that I might go completely insane. And I know what you might be thinking at this point..."damn...you need to check yourself into the Nut House"....or "damn, you have more problems than Depression and Anxiety".  All I have to say to that is...Have you ever heard of an Indigo Child, Rainbow Child, etc?  That's me.  I am not completely of this Earth.  I am more and I remember things of my spirit that was before my birth in to my incarnate body/mind/soul complex.
So with all this said, it brings me back to my headaches.  I have been working with a certain individual in hopes of The Creator healing his/her aliments and changing some incorrect belief systems.  The Creator revealed to me some extremely heavy things about this person and when I shared them there was much resistance and fear. To be expected, right?  Anyhow, that is when the headaches started.  In addition to do doing remote prayers and requests for healings with this person, I was able to meet with this person in the physical and do a few sessions.  They were promising and at the time an overall good experience for both parties. And so while in the presence of this person, I kept thinking that I had to get away from them.  Yesterday, the headaches where so intense, I couldn't get out of bed.  I spent all day and night in bed.  Today, I am fine. A bit irritated, but I think that is because my kids are fighting. LOL.  So I suppose what I am trying to get at is...can a person's aliments and spiritual baggage be that intoxicating for me?  Why can't I protect myself from this?  Is this empathy? Or is this the way The Creator works through me?  Or is the headaches just the Texas heat and humidity?
In addition to the headaches, when I think that they might be subsiding, I experience severe melancholy along with intense realizations about the people around me or that have been around me during the day. I do believe that The Creator is telling me the truth about them.  And just so you know, I asked for it. I asked The Creator for truth. (My Theta Friends will know what I am talking about).  As you know, I can't go into detail about these things for pure respect of these people, not to mention Love for them as well.

Now I have to shift into third gear.  I had many other things that I wanted to talk about, but my mother just brought some pictures over to show me...and now I am showing them to you because they are so very exciting. (Remind me later to tell the story about my son seeing his "true self" and his "angel")
These pictures are of my son and my daughter.  All were taken in the last week.
You can judge for yourself, but I know what I see.
Please, please, leave "comments" on my blog page and tell me what you see.

Weekend in Review & Memories of Auras

My sister has been visiting for the holiday weekend and all is well.

I have been anxious to share all my new found "isms" with her in hopes that my joy is contagious.  I think that the lesson I am learning in this area is that each person is so different.  You know the saying, "To each his own."

However, we did some simple stretching and yoga together and she responded well.   It pleased me.

Today is humid and hot.  I find that the hot weather brings out irritation in me.  I don't like that side of myself. I don't know what else to say about that.

The girls are out of school now and my son will be done next Friday.  I am looking forward to the summer break with the hopes of sleeping a little later, not being rushed about to meet a time schedule and hopefully doing some fun things with the kids.

I have been in a bit of a dry spot spiritually, but I think that is the way it's suppose to be.  The past couple of months have been so intense in learning and growing that it is only proper to have some time to let it sink in.  I have notice huge changes in every area of my life....well...except I still don't want to wash the dishes. :)

I seem to have a little more patience. Time doesn't seem to be as pressing. I am stopping to enjoy the view, smell the breeze, stare at the window and appreciate the Earth around me.

We have had many thunderstorms lately and I have fully taken advantage of enjoying them at every moment that I can give them.

I have noticed that my house plants are healthier and blooming.

My gift of seeing aura's is advancing slightly with the help of book that a friend gave me and of course with lots of prayer and mediation.

My husband is noticing the changes. He has verbalized that to me.  However I am not sure if he likes it because I have tended to be a little more quiet.  I am choosing to speak less when I am fully aware of the need for silence.  I am not sure that he understands that, because I have always been quite the talker.

Lastly, I have been remembering so things from my late teens and early 20's. Granted I did many many drugs at that point in my life, however I am remember certain "opinions" and auras that I experienced and idea that I just new were really reality.

For example: Long story, short...I was with a guy that I was in love with.  We referred to each other as "companions" instead of boyfriend and girlfriend.  He was a very insightful individual, however confused. As was I. Things had been getting weird because we weren't communicating with each other ...
One night he came by early in  morning or late at night, however you want to see it.  I won't tell you what our poison of choice was that night, but he talked me into going over to someone's house that he knew and said he would like all of us to hang out and meet.  Her name was Sarah.

As I was sitting with four or five other people and we were just talking and smoking, I felt my body retract into a corner and I begin to see my companion and Sarah talk and exchange looks from my point of view as a fly on the wall....then I saw their aura's.

They melted together and exchanged loving light back and forth like a lava lamp of misty pinks and blues and yellows. They were in love.  I knew it in my heart. I had never experienced anything like that, nor have I ever again. I know now that what I experienced was real.  It wasn't a hallucination. I didn't think that then, and I don't think that now.

As I continue to go through my old journals and remember certain small experiences I remember seeing others auras. Usually that is why I would write about that particular person.

That is how I met my first husband.  He was the only person in the room that I could see his aura.  His aura was red and orange.  I wasn't on any drugs at that moment in my life.  I wish that I wouldn't have known more about the colors and blockages that I saw in him that day. Perhaps I wouldn't have married him. Ha! :)

Another person that is forever attached to my soul is Brandon.  I met him at massage school and the first time I saw him, his aura was shining. He taught me many things about myself. I miss him terribly.

There are many, many more examples...but I don't have the time to write about them.
Tomorrow perhaps.

Be blessed today in Love and Light of the Infinite Creator of The Universe.

Wallow In A Fabulous Day

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Check out this link to Miracle Ready: Healing Body, Heart & Soul
I am going to attend this class and I very excited about what I might learn.
Blessings to All today.
Today is a fabulous day.
Wallow in it!!

This is My Struggle

The Law Of One, The Law Is One

Today I woke up feeling lonely and displaced. I was wondering why I always feel this way in my own home.  I have no desire to clean, do laundry or any of the other things that a mom and housewife would do in her home.  All I think about is finding a way to be more than the physical; finding a way to be more than what I am now.  I am afraid in this desire to do something great.  I have so many ideas.  I want to reach out to people.  I want to show them what I know so that they might experience the same blissful desire that is so much more than a job, housework, laundry and raising children.  Yet, in this idea, I am isolated.  That is a better way of putting it.  I am isolated in my own home.  I don't choose this isolation, but have to be here out of my earthly obligations. I am isolated because of lack of time, money and something else....I don't know what this other factor is yet.... This is my struggle. 

So to turn the page....I have a few visions.
I have noticed the intent push from my Being and to lay my hands on certain people.  They will talking about something that is bothering them or hurting them.  I will get this surge of Energy from the Earth in my Root Chakra, then it flows up threw me to my Heart Chakra and out through my hands. Then the rest of my body and Chakras flow together and then in my mind's eye I see what is wrong, sometimes clearly, sometimes not.  I then think or hear something in my Being saying to touch them at a certain area, or to massage a trigger point or a certain reflex point.  For the first time, I followed my intuition and did what I was told to do.  This woman was someone that I knew only professionally. She teaches my son a sport.  She was complaining of hip pain.  I kept thinking that it wasn't really her hip, but her body was transferring the pain from somewhere else and I needed to massage the area in her hand between her thumb and index finger.  I asked her if I could and she said yes.  I took a deep breath found the knot and squeezed. She said it was tender.  It turns out that it was about in the place of the trigger point that connects to the diaphragm and the solar plexus, adrenal gland and kidneys.   I told her a little about reflexology and that she could massage her hands herself in certain areas to help her discomfort. She then showed me her feet and how swollen they were. She was retaining water. She said that my hands were hot and that I seemed to be good at it.  I just smiled and tried to send her Love while I was holding her hand.  The next day when my husband took my son to class again, she told him that she was comfortable within the hour of my massaging her hand for those few minutes and that the swelling in her feet went down as well.  I couldn't believe it.  What a wonderful feeling to have help someone in such a small way just by doing what The Creator was telling me to do.  And all the while I was scared to death.
So what is the worst thing that could have happened. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Except the feeling of discord from not following the Voice (a very loud One) and doing what I was MADE to do.

So in these Visions, Daydreams, Meditation Thoughts, etc....I see myself leading...teaching...healing...mostly healing.  First I am healed through the Power of The Creator. As I use the Energy from the Earth and The Creator, others are placed in my path by coincidence (I don't really believe in coincidence) or shall we say Divine Purpose to receive this Healing as well. However as I am having these images, I feel an intense push for time.  The Message says, "Time is short, quit stalling."

To bring this all together...
I am afraid. I am afraid of the consequences of doing nothing. Yet I sit still because I can't get past the fact that I have no training, no money to do the training and obligations at home.  So still I sit still, very still.  I know what it is that I am suppose to be doing. However I feel lonely, unprepared, uneducated, isolated, and misunderstood.

When I was about 7 years old, a woman came to my church that was a missionary.  She came up to me after the service and asked me if she could talk with me and pray with me.  Of course I said yes, I was just a kid.  She told me that God has something very special for me to do.  She said that God was going to use my hands and my voice for as an Instrument.  Being a child at that time, I thought maybe I was going to play music and sing.  But now looking back I am suppose to teach and let the power of the Earth and The Creator flow through my voice and my hands.
Then I learned later that my name meant Love and Purity.  I have rejected these ideas for many reasons until here recently.

I am an Instrument of Love and Purity; I am a Healer; I am a Teacher; Thanks to the Grace, Gnosis, Love and Forgiveness of The Infinite Creator, and Yeshua.

However, I still feel fear. This is my struggle.

Until next time....
"I leave you in the Love and the Light of the One Infinite Creator. Go forth, then, rejoicing in the Power and Peace. Adonai" -- "Ra" from the book The Law Of One

A Crazy Fat Lady

It has been becoming more and more apparant to me that most people dont view the world and life's purpose as I do. I have tried to remain opptimistic because I know what I was made to do, but no one wants to hear about. Everyone is too busy and when I choose to speak if I feel I have their ear they look at me as though I was a freak of nature or a sadly mentally ill child. I know things that are unexplainable. I see and understand the intangiable. All these things are right with me. I am more comfortable with what the world calls ''freakish'' or ''imagianary'', perhaps ''dislusional'' than what's considered normal. What is normal anyway?
Anyhow, I am searching for a mentor, a friend, someone that can share my views and teach me the ways of the Creator and of the Universe. Something far beyond the reaches of church and retuial. I am beginning to wonder if this even exsist. Perhps I am fucked up in the head and dislusional after all. I desire so many things and I know that I can be a special and original Light in a world that is dark and asleep. Why wont anyone help me? Why doesnt anyone believe me that I can see auras and hear and see spirits.? Why doesnt anyone know what to do with that information? I was told one night that I shouldnt share that with just anyone. And I dont. Maybe I made the wrong chioce in sharing that in the healing circle. I felt that I should get it out there. I feel ignored in every way by the people that I am drawn to the most. Once again just like when I was younger my gifts have seperated me from companionship that I long for so desperately. Everytime I experiance this, I die a little more inside. I am tired of dieing. I want to live and share what I know. I want a mentor. I want a teacher, so I may evolve to the Being that is trapped in my body. I want to show the world what my Creator made me to be. But to the world from the outside looking in, I am just a fat, dislusional lady desperately begging for attention and love in all the wrong places.
sorry for the typos. i am typing from my phone.